I never forget when the first time I saw their video 'What Makes You Beautiful' from youtube. They're successfully make me fall in love with them at the first sight.
I love them very much. I never meet them. Because I'm in Narnia. Its sad actually but what can I do? I doesn't have enough money to go to UK. Maybe my mom and my dad can buy me a ticket but she won't, believe me.
Living in Narnia is very... sad. We're having a hard time. I don't know maybe its just me. I have to school, studying and there's a lot of homework that I've to do, and when I go to twitter and get info about them, I just can't stop. It's like the time has stop. Yes, I'm very happy being a directioner, and being in 1D Family. I love all the lads, and directioners. I'm very happy and I love it actually being their fans, they care about each other, care about their family, their friends and their fans. They're never forget who they are before. That's why I love them.
I've always imagining if I meet them. But really, if I have a chance, I want to talk to them, and hug all of them. I want to get to know, and having a good conversations with them. I want to be their friend. I know it sound crazy and selfish but I'm sorry I really want to. Who's not want to be their friends right? I bet all of you want to be their friends. But I realize that I'm one of millions. I repeat. I'm just one of millions. None of them following me on twitter, none of them had replied my tweets. None of them. Sometimes its hurt me you know. But no, I'm not hating on you who's already got a follow or noticed from them. I'm happy for you. I'm just getting upset with myself. I'm usually crying and talk to myself.
"You know it's useless if you're keep trying to get their notice or their follow, because you just have 0.00001% chance. You're one of millions"
But in other side I always tell myself
"Yes you have that 'lucky day' someday. Believe it. They will notice you soon. Just keep tweeting and be patient"
Oh and you know what, I'm actually crying when I saw video 'One Direction in America episode 6' from OneDirectionVevo on youtube. Yes I'm crying every time I watch that video. I'm crying when song 'Moments' playing in that video after a girl got a wristband from a guy and help her. I'm crying because I'm happy for the fans who's already meet them (and for that girl (I'm sorry I don't know her name)) and I think I know what it feels like even though I never feel it before. But in other side, I'm crying because I'm sad and always thinking when I will meet them. It's really sad. Like I said. Really really sad. And when I watched "One Direction DVD Live Tour" I felt the same. I'm crying and I don't know how many time I've watched that DVD and the video.
You know that they're really changes my life. They did. I've spend a lot of money before for nothing. But now, I'm saving the money to get to their concert even I don't know when they will come to my country but yeah, I'm saving it from now. I've save some money to buy their albums, and their dvd. I'm sorry I haven't got their books because whenever I want to buy it, it was sold out. And I doesn't have a lot of money to buy it. Hahaha. My life is complicated. No my parents is not rich but thanks God they can pay for eat and schools with simple life.
But for me, if you really love them, its not mean that you must have all of their stuffs. No its not. You learn to support them, you learn to be patient to loving them. You learn to be patient to get their notice even though they haven't notice you. They haven't. I want you to remember that, they haven't notice you. Just keep believing and pray to God. I know they will notice you and me (amen) if we want to be a little more hard work to get that. Just keep trying!
Okay, I think that's all for now.
Good bye and I love you so much guys. :) <3
Sincerely,
S, Asian Directioner.
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